Happy Saturday peeps!
I just got home from my paper route, but I’m hoping all y’all are getting to sleep in (lucky dogs).
I wanted to write this post because I have some news. It isn’t really good news, but it isn’t super bad news either, because they say when one door closes another one opens. I haven’t seen it personally yet. I sort of feel like my life is imploding right now with all this debt hanging over my head, my inability to find a job right now (I’ve been a stay at home mom/in home baby sitter for the last 10 years), and now my agent and I have parted ways.
That’s right. I now longer have an agent.
It shouldn’t come as a surprise. I’ve been editing with her for the last three years and she never submit anything anywhere. To be fair, she started out with SHIVER them discovered BRIAR and shoved SHIVER aside. A decision I wasn’t happy with, but I never felt like I could talk to her. She came across to me as agent knows best. When she had me rewrite all of BRIAR taking out the Alice in Wonderland parts, I was horrorfied. I loved the story the way it was, but I did it. I thought she was my only chance at getting published. I felt like I couldn’t talk to her, she felt like she was editing me into a box. I spent 3 years editing the same two manuscripts. I grew to hate them.
I don’t know what’s next for me. I’ve been resubmitting queries and I have two new manuscripts I finished this year. I’m hoping this will be the year I finally get published. That I find an agent who gets me and loves my writing as much as I do. We’ll see. Right now I need to take care of this debt and get my life back on track. It’s difficult to be out of work for 10 years then try to put yourself in the working world again. Hunny hasn’t made it easy either. He’s very picky about the type of job I get.
Anywho, I want to leave you with a bit of what I learned the last three years.
1. If it doesn’t feel right, it probably isn’t. Don’t hang around because you’re scared it’s your only shot. Someone out there will love your stuff like you do. Don’t get discouraged (remind me to follow my own advice, will you?)
2. An agent and an author is a partnership. You’re working together to achieve the same goal. When one side is dominating the opinions, it’s no longer a partnership. Re-evaluate.
3.Stick to your guns. If you feel strongly about something, say it. Don’t do whatever just to please someone because you’re scared.
4. Don’t push a relationship. I should have been more patient in searching for agents and making sure this was a partnership that would work for me. I’m sort of a hands-on kind of person. I needed an agent I could talk to when I didn’t understand her notes, or when I wasn’t sure what exactly I was doing wrong. Of course, an editor friend of mine told me she was crazy and my work was done a year ago, so who knows?
Well, that’s all I’ve got for now. I’ve got a new manuscript I’m itching to write. I’ll give you the title, but that’s all for now :WORLDS WITHOUT END.